Human touch

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Relationship status of tinder-matches turned fuckbuddies, of strangers who sext through their lonely nights   Without asking the other what their name means, or never watching their eyes sparkle when they talk about their passion   Tagging each other in memes while saving BuzzFeed for the special days they feel like bonding, bitmoji doing their bidding for booty calls   Staying silent about that nasty scar on her hips and never mentioning the night he broke down in a bar   For why bother sky gazing when you can get as high as them, in the back of a car that’s […]

Reflection

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If its true, you’ll find each other again Like two people with perfect hair, we’ll meet each other again. Perhaps we’ll find each other in the same subway, or merely on tinder. Our love will rekindle and all the years, the anguish, will be worth it. At least, that’s what they tell me. Perhaps not all love is meant to last. Maybe love is as fleeting as a rainbow in the mist, but that doesn’t make it any less beautiful. Perhaps, it’s the rarity that makes us stare in awe, and remember it fondly. Maybe, love isn’t about all the […]

The boy

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There is nothing that can convince me that you were a mistake. It was you who gave me faith; who made me believe I was capable of loving and being loved. I could eat your fries without it being treated as a cardinal sin. And then, cry into each others’ arms on the beach at 2 am on a weekday, just because life is hard and we didn’t have words. You came rushing when I was in the hospital, and you assumed I was dying – I was not. Oh, how you just held my hand as the pain kicked […]

Hiraeth

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Longing for a home that exists outside the realm of possibility   for I was taught that home is where the heart is yet mine lies cold in search of meaning, if there is any   perhaps I am doomed to be wandering finding love and hate and the comfort in between and not in dichotomies   there is no peace hidden in greys but in the hues of life places, people I yearn to be mine for eternity but soon I remind myself of the futility

Modern day romance 

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Alas, life isn’t like the movies. I might never find my one true love and live happily ever after. I might, perhaps, find someone beautiful and then fuck it all up. I might not get butterflies in my stomach at their sight, and I might not get the adrenaline rush of having to defend something pure and magical. Life might not bless me with a romance I crave for. Maybe it’s time to accept the harsh reality and move on. To accept that modern day romance probably won’t accommodate my ideas of love. That I will have to make do […]

Evaluations

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Here I am, a twenty-something year old. I’m at the age that I assumed I would have found stability at. The age where I would know what I want to do, where I want to be. I would have an independent life and a puppy, living in a studio apartment overlooking an ancient city. Maybe Rome, or Rio De Janeiro. The possibilities would be endless. Yet, as I type this, I realise how stupid I was at fifteen. Because I don’t know what exactly is my life now. I’m not entirely sure if I want to follow the path that […]

Moving on

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It was about this time, last year, that I broke up with my first love. Two years and more of a relationship, of talking almost every single day, until one of us fell asleep. That was what we had, and it was gone, instantly. Looking back, maybe it was inevitable. Both him and I know the reasons for the breakup, and both of us have slightly different versions. Today, I’m not here to prove myself right. Because what happened, happened. What was said and done, is exactly that, in the past. We both broke down and cried, drowned our sorrows […]

Friendship Day

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So, I found out at midnight that it was friendship day today. And don’t get me wrong, I don’t have anything against assigned days for some relationship. Valentine’s day, mother’s day, father’s day, dog’s day. They’re all good, man, they’re all good. I’m all for people keeping out one day of the year to express their love and gratitude. Because as much as we all would like to, we just fail to be kind to everyone every day. My problem with friendship day though is the amount of messages I get from people I don’t really consider friends. You might […]

About turning 20

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The exact moment I was born, I spent napping today. I honestly cannot think of a better way to spend that precious time. Nah, I had plans. I’m just consoling myself for the kind of lame life I lead. It’s not as fun as my social media might lead you to believe. But a girl’s gotta keep up her game. So, 20 entire years ago, as in 2 decades ago, I almost managed to kill my mother and myself in the process of being born. Maybe I was a lazy baby as well, but I was in a breech position and […]

Reflection

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I found this in my notes today. Just one of those post-heartbreak kind of rants. The truth is that I was vulnerable, And you were so right for me, like the breeze bringing me relief from the sun that burned my skin and soul I enjoyed your presence, Thought, you brought along spring, I felt my heart heal, forget the misery and then your beautiful hands, they wrapped around me like a shield Our love was strong, against the world There were drizzles on some days but rainbows always came along, But then the rains turned into hurricanes the eye […]